decisions, decisions
I think Blog stands for backlog. I have a host of potential posts in my head but presently work, ministry, school and family life are all-consuming. Besides that, very little of anything in my head right now is fit for public distribution.
The grant I was working on is finished, our staff restructure is nearly complete, and I still have a job, which is more than I can say for other programs like mine around the country. Listening Life is in full swing with tons of untapped potential that I don’t have time to help tap. I have a research paper on Matthew’s portrayal of discipleship due in less than two weeks that I started, got off on a rabbit trail with and now need to go back and straighten out. And, last I looked, I still have two children and a spouse who need more than minimal attention. Every few days now, I have the thought that, "I can’t do this." But that's what the boy and his horse thought too only to find out that what they thought they could do and what they could do were not the same thing....(C.S. Lewis)
All the same, I am beginning to conclude that I’m not going to be able to complete my degree, work nearly full time, continue in ministry at my church and expect to stay sane, healthy, and married. Logically, I should give something up. This is my problem: I love my classes and Listening Life and Steve says I can’t quit my job (thereby losing tuition reimbursement and bill-paying potential) unless we sell the farm and move into town. My brain hurts from thinking about it. Which is why I don't have much to say these days. Now I know how a kid feels when given the "choice" to eat brussel sprouts or cooked spinach.
Home Sweet Home:
Curly, our nosey neighbor:
The grant I was working on is finished, our staff restructure is nearly complete, and I still have a job, which is more than I can say for other programs like mine around the country. Listening Life is in full swing with tons of untapped potential that I don’t have time to help tap. I have a research paper on Matthew’s portrayal of discipleship due in less than two weeks that I started, got off on a rabbit trail with and now need to go back and straighten out. And, last I looked, I still have two children and a spouse who need more than minimal attention. Every few days now, I have the thought that, "I can’t do this." But that's what the boy and his horse thought too only to find out that what they thought they could do and what they could do were not the same thing....(C.S. Lewis)
All the same, I am beginning to conclude that I’m not going to be able to complete my degree, work nearly full time, continue in ministry at my church and expect to stay sane, healthy, and married. Logically, I should give something up. This is my problem: I love my classes and Listening Life and Steve says I can’t quit my job (thereby losing tuition reimbursement and bill-paying potential) unless we sell the farm and move into town. My brain hurts from thinking about it. Which is why I don't have much to say these days. Now I know how a kid feels when given the "choice" to eat brussel sprouts or cooked spinach.
Home Sweet Home:
Curly, our nosey neighbor:
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